I’m fixing myself

February 15, 2007 julimoet

I should be counting on an incredibly new beginning. Start things over again. With the ruined pieces of victory i had after beaten by what I called injustice. But as I took a silent space to reflect, I started to assume that I’ve got what I deserved. I was just blinded for doing good things while in fact I didn’t.

If so far I thought that I’ve been snowed under by those stuffs that kept burdening me, I was wrong. Those turned things out that I couldn’t maximize performing the best. Again, I was undenyably wrong. The truth was that I’ve been acting like a spoiled girl, blaming everything, frustating, committing to silly desperateness, humiliating myself!!! That has been merely one single reason I failed. I failed to be what I wanted to be. It was solely because I didn’t put my efforts to perform the best. I too much relied on being spontaneous, and left myself unplanned.

When things turned out unlikely to be what I’ve expected, I put myself extremely much in misery. I deeply resisted those failures, rejecting them, as if i gained injustice. However, I was mistaken, completely. Those failures which kept coming to me were absolutely what I ought to commit.

There’s nothing and no one to blame…..but i’m fixing myself!

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• 1. dtie  |  February 21, 2007 at 8:10 am

  My dear ndoely…that’s what is called WORLD. We can never rule the world. We can never expect justice to always be a part of our life. Sometimes we have to eccept any of thing which we consider injustice. However, believe that every cloud has a silver lining. What we consider injustice and does bad thing to us is not always seen so in God’s eyes.
  But sure i agree that u recently did not pay much attention on whatever u did. Seems that u did not plan carefully whatever things u were going to do. Remember this one? Success is pre-designed and it is planned.
  Start renewing ur plan n gain success.
  I love you. And I’ll always be here for you.

• 2. rip  |  October 2, 2007 at 4:13 am

  maaf pake bahasa indonesia mawon nggih….
  koq podho karo bloge DTie to…. sekedar perkenalan mawon lha wong isi tulisane nggih ra mudheng artine… neng apik koq..tetep semangat!!!!!

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